An Apology.

Hello, friends.

You might have noticed that I have been absent of late. For that, I apologize. Things are really difficult for me personally right now, and the hardest part is that even the thing that has always gotten me through the worst times of my life, baseball, can’t heal the brokenness that I feel inside.

There is no joy in my life. I can’t pretend to be excited about hot stove transactions or what silly things my favorite players have posted on Twitter. I’m not even paying attention so much to Moose Watch, because right now I am numb to everything except a never dulling pain that won’t end.

There are a few articles I have been working on, and I’ll post those when they are completed. I feel an obligation to you all. You’re all good people, and I care very much about this site. I just might be pretty quiet for a while so that I can either feel something again, or I can not feel anything.

From my heart, I wish you a holiday season surrounded by people who put light in your heart, whoever that might be. And if you’re like me, and that light has gone out, then I wish you a measure of peace, and I wish the same for myself.

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6 thoughts on “An Apology.

  1. We may not be able see eye to eye, Prof… but I/we are still here willing to listen what’s bothering you. I’m mostly a quiet guy, and would rather spend the time alone than hanging out… but sometimes speaking out your problem to someone close to you, and understands you, really helps out a lot. And come on Prof, there’s nothing for you to apologize about. 🙂

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  2. No apologies to us needed. The important thing for you right now is to find that good spot for yourself right now. You have no other obligations to us.

    I can’t pretend to tell you what you need to do. But you have my encouragement and best wishes.

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    • I second all that. The holidays can be as miserable for the lonely as they can be joyous for the rich. Hang in there. By next year at this time this will all feel like it was just a bad dream. Big hugs!

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  3. “I don’t have to tell you that the one constant through all the years has been baseball. America has been erased like a blackboard, only to be rebuilt and then erased again. But baseball has marked time while America has rolled by like a procession of steamrollers.”
    ― W.P. Kinsella, Shoeless Joe

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